It has been a while since I have given you an update or a solution to energetic problems. Life has a way of blocking or taking me on another path.
I have been asked when I will post something new. I have a couple of items that will be posted in time. In saying that, I do want to reiterate that I am eclectic in my practice. I do not stay with one aspect as if it were written in stone.
These posts are created to give you the ability to push past your demons. Will I say this is 100% foolproof? No, because we as beings on this planet radiate at different frequencies, and outcomes will be different for everyone.
Comments are always welcome and discussion of where you see something done a little differently are welcome as well.
I am ending it here. If you are following me, thank you, and keep an eye out for the update, and if you are new, Welcome.
Today’s topic is cord cutting. We all have out ways of severing ties that make the person or being on the other side leave.
But what if you stumble upon a site that aimed to wrap you in its cord to have you obsessively returning?
Yes, that has happened to me. I have never been one to stay on any site, read any book, watch any show etc. and get so attached that I could not do anything else.
This site did.
Once I realized what had occurred. I felt so foolish. How did I now know what was happening?
Realization was the first part of severing. Second part is what wrapped around me exactly? Illusion.
The illusion that they were welcoming and likeminded individuals. the truth is they are dark. Even the lightest of souls had a dark agenda and I fell for it.
With this realization the cord began to unravel. The pull was Lessing but I was feeling the withdrawal.
The loneliness, the not having someone or someplace I can talk to people.
Saying a plea to the god and goddess for guidance was key. How to separate and still be present.
Little by little the cord was being sheard away. Until I felt like me.
Now their innocent plea of can you or will you is greeted with I can’t, and I won’t and that pleases me.
Thank you for reading the Cauldron speaks. Blessing and light to you all.
Blessings to you all and welcome back to Cauldron Speaks.
As you see in the title today’s topic is the box.
What am I talking about?
There are several boxes but today I want to touch on this one.
A psychic box. A construct that encases the subject in a state of non-movement.
Huh?
Yes. non movement. One example is an oppressive box. This particular box you voluntarily walked into.
You had no idea that once you shook the hand of the person before you, you started a chain of events that trapped you in a box.
In this box you will be attacked subtly with negativity. A smart remark here. A put down that is made out to be a joke (it wasn’t but you did not realize it at the time).
You start to realize that you were in this box when your ideas are handed off to someone else. Or if you try to move up in the company. You are appeased and move “laterally”
How do you get out of this box?
Call on your ancestors to guide you out or call upon a spirit that was in the business world. (Has to be in the business you are in) For assistance.
Why?
Do you want to stay and make a change or go somewhere else to be authentically you? This is a question you have to answer.
That box can be destroyed. You have to dig and claw at it to be free.
When I started this post, I intended to write something else. This is intended for someone who needs to hear this.
When you are walking around and feel lost. Feel like you do not have a purpose other than to receive pain. to be the conduit of pain. To be that black hole that sucks all the pain and despair into your soul.
That is not your purpose. This is for that person who has come to the end of that situation. Let me be completely honest.
There are those who are born to be that pain. To inflict the pain upon others. Just like there is light there is darkness.
I am talking to the person who received the pain and at some point took so much, that you had to lash out to get rid of some of it.
Now you are walking, and the shadow is still hooving around you, but it realizes that you are not accepting it anymore.
How do you be happy? How do you be the light?
What are you doing, and you do it so effortlessly that you do not even realize that you are doing it?
Are you helping a person that is in pain or suffering? Have you been their anchor to this earth so they can move?
So seem to always be there when someone needs you. That is your purpose.
In this world we need you. Always had and always will. Even though your beginning was hard and down right deplorable. Things were done that should have been done. You survived
In your survival you have learned lessons. Take those lessons and move forward.
Computer vampires are just like their counter parts. They leach off energy of others. They mask it by cyber bullying and cause misery.
You will notice the great satisfaction of a job well done. They feast off of the negativity they inflict. They glory in the pain and the depressed state their victims fall into.
Why do they do this? They cannot get close enough to the target in real life to accomplish an energy transfer. There is always an obstacle. These computer vampires also know when a person online cannot be leached off of. They will block you immediately.
I have been to a site that the emoji this person was using gave me a weird feeling. When I tried to go on their page I was blocked. I was blocked from the moment I was on the site.
Why is that? Fear that I will stop them. Return the sender spell. Deplete their power and expose what they are doing to the others who follow.
There were multiple energy vampires on this site, and I have managed to deter them from me.
There is a spell I use asking for St. Expedite to intercede on my behalf and remove them from my vicinity.
It worked so fast the next day. They never bothered me. The one that blocked me is in my shadow often. I can feel them when they are lurking around. I just keep myself at a distance. Keep grounded and ask the goddess for protection.
I hope this gives you a little insight on computer vampires.
They creep around
They aggressively attack you online to cause you pain
It has been a long time since I have written. A lot has happened that kept me away, but I think I needed this time to be away to make sure I know who I am.
There were times that I had broken down and felt lost. But the goddess pulls me back with signs. Like someone out of the blue would say that my presence is felt even when I am gone. Or a feather will come through my window when now birds are near.
A single drop of rain falls exactly on my third eye and no other place gets wet. ( Not around any buildings, so now air conditioner water)
Just recently I was on a site that made me question who I am. Made me feel emotions of doubt and not being worthy.
suddenly in the Dm’s I get a message asking me to help come up with a spell to get his wife to stay. “What?”
I told no one what I do or who I am. There you see the Goddess is calling me back. I have strayed too far and that was why I was floundering.
I am now in the process of correcting the ridiculousness of my actions.
I state all this because I am human. I stray and get lost in the thick smoke, but I am walking through to get air.
Today I am burning a white candle and some incense. Center myself and move forward.
I thought it would have been easy to keep this journal, but I found that it wasn’t. Life really had a way of interfering with witting things out.
So I will fill you in a bit. After accepting a position at an office that I should not have. I realized that I was losing my connection to spirt.
I felt angry and depressed. Everywhere I turned I felt that I was being held down. I wanted to fly, and my wings were cut. So, I came to the decision that I had to do whatever I must to get out of this.
You may wonder why I didn’t spell it to be better. The problem is that the beings at the office had a very strong will. A will that past down to one person to another, like a dark thought. As I sit here and write this it is amazing that I lasted as long as I did.
I had a mini break down and that was one of the straws that kept hitting the camel’s back. Being talked down to as if I was a child instead of an adult. Things that were kept from me that had to do with me. Then there was the jealousy. I see it and feel it from my higher up.
My aura embraces all. I get along with so many different people and yet all I wanted to do was bite my leg off to get free.
So, the thought came to me, and I went with it. It was at the time, the thought was a lie but it was coming into reality, I had put an intention out in the air, and it is coming true.
As of the new year, I will be in a new home with a new job. Space enough that I can worship the God and Goddess as I please.
During the path I was on I learned that the gods did not forsake me. I was telling people what I knew about things that are happening and it came to light about a week later. I do not see the future. So, get that out of your heads but I feel things and know it to be true.
This calendar year there will be a monumental shift with me. I will lose friends unintentionally and I will rise in recognition due to hard work behind closed doors.
With that being said I will post sporadically like now and take you along.
Blessing to you all. It has been a while and I did try to tell you what was going on with me a while back but for some reason it was not the time.
We are getting close to the end, and I have to tell you this journey was rough. I went through a slight depression that I managed to get out of on my own. It was triggered by being around people who were out for themselves, and I let them use me.
Within this time, I had to lie to get out of a situation that was very bad for my mental health. I was around people whose agenda was not aligned with my own. I learned a lesson. Do not believe what everyone tells you.
I trusted a person who said I would need to be more knowledge of certain things to move up. So, I need to be in a busier office. Well, I should have listened to my mother, my close friends and the hints that other managers were giving to let me know that I was making the wrong move.
But I ignored it and at this time I neglected my spiritual practice so that should have been a sign as well. During this time, I had heard a male voice while I was going to sleep. I was in that in-between phase. It said, “I’m here”. It startled me but sitting and thinking on this. If I didn’t hear that voice, I may not have had the courage to reverse the damage I had caused to myself.
I applied to a school to be able to move up and now that I see who that group is I don’t want it. The majority of them are toxic. No that is not me and I do not want to change to be one of them.
I tried to offer my services to other sites, yet my boss would not let me go. I got a certificate to teach and yet I was still locked in her chains.
So, I lied and informed them of my leaving. Do I feel guilty? Nope. I do not condone lying but I do not feel the shame I would normally feel in the past when I did. So, I am taking it as a sign that I am being help out of this situation.
Once I set this in motion oh my goddess the weight was being lifted off me. I managed to get my old job back. I managed to set some boundaries on my availability to them. I have taken time off to get my mind and soul right.
I have been burning seven-day candles to help them find my replacement. Oh, that is a story. I put on one of the candles to find the perfect replacement and No lie the perfect part was black, and the replacement part was clear. So, they will get a replacement, but it will not be perfect, but it will be good for them.
I just lit a red candle last night to speed up the process because I have withdrawn from this site. There are people I will miss but I will see them at function. That is good enough.
I went to visit the office I used to work out of and when I say there is only a handful of people that I recognize, that is the truth. I used to consider it home. Now it’s just another office.
This is where I want to return to the lie. I went to say hi to someone in this old office. Why did she reiterate my lie back to me? How many hire ups know about this lie? Did I go too far with it?
Still, I feel calm, and I say no. It has taken me a year and eleven months to realize that what I wanted then was not in my best interest. Yet the God and Goddess allowed me to make this mistake.
This experience will help mold me even further in the path that is chosen for me. I know this is a ramble but allot of time passed by and I wanted you to know what has been going on. My next post will interest you. So, stay tuned.
Blessing to you all. I do not know where everyone lives but where I am located it is a heat wave. I’m not liking the heat at this moment. Remember I am an earth sign. I tend to absorb the heat, the cold, and moisture. Let’s not talk about the wind. Being pushed around buy and invisible force is not fun.
Let’s catch up shall we. As they say all good intentions tend to die at the waist side when unforeseen elements are introduced.
Lets start at the last full moon on 7/13/2022. Blood moon that caused so much havoc on my emotions that I literally had an emotional break down. It started off with a twinge of annoyance. I pushed it aside dismissing it as being fatigue. The next time it turned into rage. That took a longer time to calm down from.
I know what I wrote previously is vague so let me elaborate. on the 11th I over heard someone that is supposed to be my boss talk about me to another. It was not nice. It was to show she had me under control. Then the next day 12th. I was approached and question as if I was doing something wrong by my bosses assistant. Why you may ask? Well I accepted to help another group of coworkers because they were down staff. She was annoyed because she was not asked first.
On the 13th I had finally had enough. There was no amount of meditation that would have calmed me. I vented all my frustration out to a friend (who happened to be a higher up) and was told to calm down. There are things in the works for me.
So essentially I still have to pay dues before I can see the rewards. I was so enraged by the gall that my two managers that I wanted to quit on the spot. I am pretty sure people have talked about me before. But to hear it is another story. It took me a week before I could calm my self and see these two women for who they really are. Incompetent’s!
(They have no structure on how to run a staff. Their communication with each other is non existent unless it’s about shopping or vacation. How do you not know when a person is out on vacation? Schedules are always a mess and the bipolar personality with the both of them is real.)
All of this happened at the time of the blood moon. As an earth sign you would think I would not be affected. But as I expressed on the top of this blog. We are affected by all the elements. What is seen and what is unseen.
I hope you all stay cool and have everything that is meant for you. Blessings