I have no real topic to focus on today. I should wait to write when I am in a better frame of mind. But I thought that I wanted to give an opinion on a reaction I received that was not right.
A coworker made a mistake and put something in the trash that was not supposed to be there. I seen it and I took it out and told her what she had done. She immediately denied she did that and that I must be crazy. REALLY?
I just saved your ass and I must be crazy. Now Like I said I am not in a good frame of mind and it pissed me off. I walked away with out saying another word. Now if I would tell this to my husband he would have said “There you go to the rescue again. You should have left it and made her learn a lesson.”
I feel that if your working there is no reason why we can not have a good time while we stay on top of things to make sure things go well. and if we are supposed to be a team, if I find something that will keep you out of trouble you should be thankful and not defensive.
Another thing I hate phony people or people who obviously are shady. I understand putting your game face on when you have to but when you turn it on and act as if you have no common sense. That irks me beyond belief.
I lit a blue candle last night to ask for some peace and solitude today, because I was not feeling right. The full moon is not on my side this time and I just feel heavy, weighed down by life. Normally I have a wall around me to block out other’s vibes. But when I feel ill it is very hard to keep it up.
I know this will pass but I need to vent a little. So it can be set free off me.
It’s been a while since I have conversed with you all. I am sorry about that. My father had passed away and we had the memorial service a couple of weeks ago.
My topic is the “How sacred is the wishes of the deceased?”
My father was born in the islands and he moved here in his thirties with my mother. As he had gotten older he would always say that he did not want to be put in the ground. So my sister and I agreed upon cremation. But during this time my mother kept twisting things around to what she felt was best. (My mother and father have been divorced for years)
My father was not a religious man like the way my mother is now. He believed in god that I do know, but I had found things that stirs me to think that he believed in other things as well. Like in the magical sense. So it does not surprise me that my sister and I have followed a different path.
I believe full heartedly that we had followed his wishes and at the same time we did allow my mother to do her church thing later. I of course left and my sister did as well.
I believe that what a person wishes to be done with their body after death is sacred and should be followed even if it’s against another person faith.
With all the up roar that is going on, I know that all my empathic sister’s and brother’s are going through it.
Just hearing about a child dying and it took two hours before the child died from the wound. Made me well up in tears. I wish no one had to die but that is ridiculous to say. We would be over populated.
There are a couple of things I want to talk about. First noticing how there is a shift in the metaphysical atmosphere. What do I mean?
For example, last year I was very on the fence on keeping my witchy favorite people I watch on You Tube on my page. Only because I have not come out to the world. Yet I could not help to be drawn to the community. So I deleted them off my page.
I set up a whole new page and I went to search them out and they had deleted their page. Right around the same time I deleted mine. Coincidence? No, I don’t believe so. I feel that we become in tune to universal vibrations that we are doing things subconsciously because someone else is doing the same exact things. In other words you become in line with them and do not realize it.
Of course my mouth fell open. Now I set up a enchantress coco page and I want to see people I used follow. They will be back on soon. Coincidence? Not. I’ve also found new people and I just thought to my self,” Where were they a few years ago, and why didn’t I find them before?”
The second thing is being asked questions while your half awake and half asleep. I get talked to a lot when I am in this in between state. Last night I was asked what kind of witch are you?
I said white witch. I believe in crystal healing, white light healing. But I am learning more about the craft every day. Then I woke up.
I want to clear something up. For me saying I am a witch in my dreams is monumental. I get dreams that are definitely messages. But I never was asked that question before and I never declared it. Ever since I announced that I am following the Goddess Brigit allot has been opening up for me.
I know I will be able to fully come out soon. Not that I have too. Witches stayed in hiding for centuries. Only other witches notice and feel who you were. I will see where I am being lead to. What journey is in store for me.
I normally do not write until Tuesday, but this situation keeps popping up in my life. I hate acting against what I feel. I have to pretend I am okay with a person even though I am not okay with that person.
This kind of internalizing causes ulcer’s and yet I can not say what I want to say. Not only ulcer’s but it puts dark spots on your aura. Why because it is towards one of the bosses I work with. Here is the crazy bit. I respect how intelligent she is. She catches things other doctor’s would not even think about.
Yet she is so unpredictable when it comes to her moods that I want to strangle her. At times she makes me feel as if I am not doing my job. I have been working at this facility for over ten year’s. I know the in’s and out’s. I do come across, know it all’s, but who doesn’t.
Everyone has things they can learn. I just don’t like acting happy to see you, when I feel totally opposite.
I asked the goddess please let this pass and it has. I have to surround myself with my positivity to continue working here. My tarot cards told me to keep my eye’s open and I see and hear allot.
Which brings me to the fact that I must focus on my own priorities. Why be given gifts and not use them.
There are so many deity’s out there which one should you follow. Honestly I had to consult my crystal pendulum. I was having dreams and in my dreams have me call out names of goddess, hen I would wake up. I would feel confident about what I had seen or said.
I felt more confused than anything. What I did notice was that I would return to the goddess Bridgit. So Like I said I consulted with the crystal and my goddess to follow is Bridgit. That it.
My alter is already set to her. I have sea shell and feathers. But I need to purchase or find swan feathers. I have the color white surrounding her . I will be incorporating green for jade.
This year I have no doubt that my calling to the goddess Bridgit is solid. I know I will be tempted to devout myself to another. I will work with other deity by I am a follower of Bridgit.
As you all can see I have posted my first public meditation. I decided it was a slow day at work I could lead a mediation and low and be holed I get interrupted. lol I tried to cut it out. So hopefully it did not disrupt the experience.
Today feels peaceful. I feel that this tradition I am starting is contributing to it. There is a few things that I have made mandatory with this.
The list is first and for most respecting the God/Goddess not only by meditation by holding myself to a standard that I know they would approve of. I was put her by the goddess and to demean my self in any way is a slap in the face.
Second, Control! Control my words because my words have power. Control my actions, for every action there is a negative or positive reaction.
Third Acquire gracefully all the blessing that is bestowed on to me and not be so questionable about it. (what do you want in return)
Forth, Be open to Spiritual guidance more. In all things.
Blessings to you all on this first day of Yule :11:01am
I have started my traditional 21 day candle burning for the holiday. The first color is blue. It is of trust and loyalty. It is a very soothing color to meditate on. Blue initiates a higher level of spiritual perspective.
On this 21 day of Yule symbolism is very important to represent the path. I am burning the blue three day candle, also Juniper incense is a great additive. You want to shed all the stress you can as you meditate to the god/goddess at this time.
Also this is the time of the year to do petition for positivity and blessings.
(This will be extend as the day goes on. I will give more information on what I am doing for the holiday and what is happening as I celebrate this time of the year)