I normally do not write until Tuesday, but this situation keeps popping up in my life. I hate acting against what I feel. I have to pretend I am okay with a person even though I am not okay with that person.
This kind of internalizing causes ulcer’s and yet I can not say what I want to say. Not only ulcer’s but it puts dark spots on your aura. Why because it is towards one of the bosses I work with. Here is the crazy bit. I respect how intelligent she is. She catches things other doctor’s would not even think about.
Yet she is so unpredictable when it comes to her moods that I want to strangle her. At times she makes me feel as if I am not doing my job. I have been working at this facility for over ten year’s. I know the in’s and out’s. I do come across, know it all’s, but who doesn’t.
Everyone has things they can learn. I just don’t like acting happy to see you, when I feel totally opposite.
I asked the goddess please let this pass and it has. I have to surround myself with my positivity to continue working here. My tarot cards told me to keep my eye’s open and I see and hear allot.
Which brings me to the fact that I must focus on my own priorities. Why be given gifts and not use them.
There are so many deity’s out there which one should you follow. Honestly I had to consult my crystal pendulum. I was having dreams and in my dreams have me call out names of goddess, hen I would wake up. I would feel confident about what I had seen or said.
I felt more confused than anything. What I did notice was that I would return to the goddess Bridgit. So Like I said I consulted with the crystal and my goddess to follow is Bridgit. That it.
My alter is already set to her. I have sea shell and feathers. But I need to purchase or find swan feathers. I have the color white surrounding her . I will be incorporating green for jade.
This year I have no doubt that my calling to the goddess Bridgit is solid. I know I will be tempted to devout myself to another. I will work with other deity by I am a follower of Bridgit.
As you all can see I have posted my first public meditation. I decided it was a slow day at work I could lead a mediation and low and be holed I get interrupted. lol I tried to cut it out. So hopefully it did not disrupt the experience.
Today feels peaceful. I feel that this tradition I am starting is contributing to it. There is a few things that I have made mandatory with this.
The list is first and for most respecting the God/Goddess not only by meditation by holding myself to a standard that I know they would approve of. I was put her by the goddess and to demean my self in any way is a slap in the face.
Second, Control! Control my words because my words have power. Control my actions, for every action there is a negative or positive reaction.
Third Acquire gracefully all the blessing that is bestowed on to me and not be so questionable about it. (what do you want in return)
Forth, Be open to Spiritual guidance more. In all things.
Good day to all. Let’s talk about something that I have not heard ever mentioned before. What to do when you find your self working with someone of the craft that aura/belief/practice does not mesh with your own.
Why did I pick this topic? Well let’s be honest there are a lot of us out there and you can not isolate your self against them.
I have run into people who do practice but do not realise they are practitioner’s. That alone can be very dangerous. Example they are doing things that they were taught by a family member that never came out of the broom closet and used the guise of what ever faith the family practising.
So you’re at work and you feel off centered. Or you walk pass a new hire and the room feels extremely lighter or heavy. You try to work together with them and something always seems to deter you from them. In other the words the spot light is not on them. “Seen yet not seen.”
Then you have those who are “Seen as the diamond.” You think to your self something is off.
Every cell in your body is screaming, spell work is at hand. What should you do, what could you do?
defiantly have a protection amulet or item on you at all times. I personally have a 12 pointed star and a couple of other items on my person.
You can smudge your area. The is a store that sell odorless smudge. That is great to cleanse your area. If you’re in your office. You can place a couple of crystals strategically to contain the spell to that person. You can do a binding spell as well. which I will do another blog on how I do it.
This best thing I find is observation first. You can tell who you are dealing with if you just watch. Then proceed to protect your self.
I hope these couple of ideas helps you in your life’s path.
this is a quick Thursday blog for the day. So this morning at 5:55am. There was a tree branch that was cut off and laying in front of my building. I was guided to break off a branch. It curved and immediately I knew that I will have it surrounded by crystals and hanging in my room and at times around my neck.
I am so excited I could not hold it in. Have a great day.
Today I want to tell you the effects of being around negativity, from my own experience.
Everyday I go to work and I dread it. I never use to feel this way. At one point I did like working where I work at and the people I work with. Things slowly started to change and My mood and thought patterns began to alter.
After working with these new people and new environment (Because our office expanded). I changed. I was vibrant and happy. The parents of the children even liked coming to see me and talk to me. The kids had a kick about of the way I dressed. I even had people wanting me to do their makeup.
Things started to change. Everyday there was something negative to hear. You had to always look over your shoulder because you wondering who is the one going to try to set you up to get you in trouble. Having doctors come at you for mistakes that other people made and you as an adult don’t want to do the blame game.
So I stopped being so happy. I stopped wearing my makeup. I stopped wearing different colors and styles in my hair. I stopped everything and lost me.
I am home for a week and I am going through a psychical and mental detox. On the first day I fell asleep as if I did not sleep for years. I got up with a smile on my face and my creative juices are flowing. My chakra’s are starting to get back in alignment because I don’t feel the weight of negativity weighing me down.
I am more determined now to get my business going. I know their are a lot of people out there doing what I do but my drive is back.
Negativity can and will attack you and break you down. It’s sad that I had to detoxify myself. But it has brought me back and I am ready to fight back. I had enough of being choke with the crap everyday. I know who I am and they will certainly see it come this Monday.
Is negativity around you? How are you getting yourself out of it? Remember we are children of the God and Goddess and we are here for a purpose.
I wanted to talk about fear of accepting the gifts the god/goddess has bestowed on you. Isn’t it amazing when you ask for help, or cast a spell to get what you want and once it is here you totally have a brain fart about it.
You wanted it, everything in you needed this to happen and now you have it. What’s the next step?
I can only speak for myself about this because honestly I am still going through it. I always wanted my own business. The signs have been pushing me towards having my own business. I tend to sell things with out really working up a sweat to convince anyone to buy it. This is a blessing that I have been given.
Everyday I push through my fear that I will fail at this. I read my tarot’s and it always said’s this is my time and to be confident. So I lift my self up and do what I have to do.
My business is being runned at home and it is slowing getting clientel. Nothing that comes fast stay’s long. So I’m the turtle in this race that other’s are already out there selling.
I tend to feel like I am so late in the game, But as I said I keep pushing forward. I do fear my blessings at times but I figure I would not have been given this if it was not meant for me to do.
So I take advice from people with a grain of salt. Because if you have never done what I am doing, how would you really know what I am going through? What I do take seriously is the criticisms of my products. I will never make everybody happy but I will try to make the majority happy.
I can not tell you not to fear. That would be asinine of me to say that. What I will say is push through the fear, because you where the one who wanted this in the first place.