I normally do not write until Tuesday, but this situation keeps popping up in my life. I hate acting against what I feel. I have to pretend I am okay with a person even though I am not okay with that person.
This kind of internalizing causes ulcer’s and yet I can not say what I want to say. Not only ulcer’s but it puts dark spots on your aura. Why because it is towards one of the bosses I work with. Here is the crazy bit. I respect how intelligent she is. She catches things other doctor’s would not even think about.
Yet she is so unpredictable when it comes to her moods that I want to strangle her. At times she makes me feel as if I am not doing my job. I have been working at this facility for over ten year’s. I know the in’s and out’s. I do come across, know it all’s, but who doesn’t.
Everyone has things they can learn. I just don’t like acting happy to see you, when I feel totally opposite.
I asked the goddess please let this pass and it has. I have to surround myself with my positivity to continue working here. My tarot cards told me to keep my eye’s open and I see and hear allot.
Which brings me to the fact that I must focus on my own priorities. Why be given gifts and not use them.
This morning I decided to do a tarot reading and I did not receive one positive card. I asked what is going to happen today?
Remember when you ask an open-ended question, the answer is not always about you. It could be what is going around you.
So I pulled deceit, financial issue, Storms coming, shadow. Spirit was informing me.
I went to work and I dealt with not having supplies and coworker running out because of her child is sick. Causing a strain at the job. I still have not been reimbursed money for buying a necessary medication for the office. I feel today will unveil a lot more. Not all is necessarily about me.
As you all can see I have posted my first public meditation. I decided it was a slow day at work I could lead a mediation and low and be holed I get interrupted. lol I tried to cut it out. So hopefully it did not disrupt the experience.
Today feels peaceful. I feel that this tradition I am starting is contributing to it. There is a few things that I have made mandatory with this.
The list is first and for most respecting the God/Goddess not only by meditation by holding myself to a standard that I know they would approve of. I was put her by the goddess and to demean my self in any way is a slap in the face.
Second, Control! Control my words because my words have power. Control my actions, for every action there is a negative or positive reaction.
Third Acquire gracefully all the blessing that is bestowed on to me and not be so questionable about it. (what do you want in return)
Forth, Be open to Spiritual guidance more. In all things.
Blessings to you all on this first day of Yule :11:01am
I have started my traditional 21 day candle burning for the holiday. The first color is blue. It is of trust and loyalty. It is a very soothing color to meditate on. Blue initiates a higher level of spiritual perspective.
On this 21 day of Yule symbolism is very important to represent the path. I am burning the blue three day candle, also Juniper incense is a great additive. You want to shed all the stress you can as you meditate to the god/goddess at this time.
Also this is the time of the year to do petition for positivity and blessings.
(This will be extend as the day goes on. I will give more information on what I am doing for the holiday and what is happening as I celebrate this time of the year)
Empathic memory default. Do you ever feel as if no matter where you are that you are always drawn to a certain feeling?
Well I have and it can be a real pain. Especially if that feeling causes you an overload.
For example I work with three woman. One that is very passive and does not put out any exciting or invading emotions. The second is very self-absorbed and emotionally guarded. The third very dominating and her presence tends to take up the entire space.
Now being an empath, I know that I am drawn to the dominating people but it causes me to be demur when I am totally opposite. I am dominating in a happy and fun way and she is black and white.
All the same, I tend to remember a time when I needed to be around that type of feeling because I gave me strength, not in a good way, now I don’t need or want it . I can’t seem to get away from it.
So what do I do? I limit the time I spend around her and I do breathing exercises to calm myself. That type of feeling not only consumes the room it can consume you.
Do you fall into a default? How do you work it out?
this is a quick Thursday blog for the day. So this morning at 5:55am. There was a tree branch that was cut off and laying in front of my building. I was guided to break off a branch. It curved and immediately I knew that I will have it surrounded by crystals and hanging in my room and at times around my neck.
I am so excited I could not hold it in. Have a great day.
My topic for this blog is new deity, old deity, or no deity. I listened to a woman say that worshiping an old deity makes no sence. Since those deity’s were good for that time, yet she continued to say that we should have a deity. A modern day deity. A being who knows the plight and struggles we are going through. Or maybe we should not worship any deity at all because then we are not pigeon held into worshipping a particular deity.
I believe that deity changes with society and the situation that we are facing today. You may change a name but it still a being that helps us along the way to our life’s path.
We as people of magik need a deity, I feel. You may not believe in what I say but it does help us focus and elevate us from what the present situation is.
I try my best to commune with my deity every day. I do get messages and I try to catch them all. Sometimes spirit speaks to me when I am in the state in between sleep and being awake. It is always a deep voice I hear.
So what I am saying is that we all should have a deity whether it is new or old.