I normally do not write until Tuesday, but this situation keeps popping up in my life. I hate acting against what I feel. I have to pretend I am okay with a person even though I am not okay with that person.
This kind of internalizing causes ulcer’s and yet I can not say what I want to say. Not only ulcer’s but it puts dark spots on your aura. Why because it is towards one of the bosses I work with. Here is the crazy bit. I respect how intelligent she is. She catches things other doctor’s would not even think about.
Yet she is so unpredictable when it comes to her moods that I want to strangle her. At times she makes me feel as if I am not doing my job. I have been working at this facility for over ten year’s. I know the in’s and out’s. I do come across, know it all’s, but who doesn’t.
Everyone has things they can learn. I just don’t like acting happy to see you, when I feel totally opposite.
I asked the goddess please let this pass and it has. I have to surround myself with my positivity to continue working here. My tarot cards told me to keep my eye’s open and I see and hear allot.
Which brings me to the fact that I must focus on my own priorities. Why be given gifts and not use them.
As you all can see I have posted my first public meditation. I decided it was a slow day at work I could lead a mediation and low and be holed I get interrupted. lol I tried to cut it out. So hopefully it did not disrupt the experience.
Today feels peaceful. I feel that this tradition I am starting is contributing to it. There is a few things that I have made mandatory with this.
The list is first and for most respecting the God/Goddess not only by meditation by holding myself to a standard that I know they would approve of. I was put her by the goddess and to demean my self in any way is a slap in the face.
Second, Control! Control my words because my words have power. Control my actions, for every action there is a negative or positive reaction.
Third Acquire gracefully all the blessing that is bestowed on to me and not be so questionable about it. (what do you want in return)
Forth, Be open to Spiritual guidance more. In all things.
Let me start by telling you a little about myself. Sweet Coco is the name I choose since they already call me coco. You can call me S. C. for short.
I am not wiccan. I don’t practice hoodoo/voodoo, or Santeria. I classify my self with the Eclectic practice of the craft.
I have been studying and looking up many things from all classes of the craft. I have to be honest and say they all have something that resonates with me.
I decided to share what I instinctual know with you. I work a full-time job and it’s with children.
For as long as I can remember I have been drawn to the craft. My mother tried her best to suppress it.
But it would not be denied. Going over to my friends homes they would have alter in their closet worshipping what they believe in. I have been taken to palm readers because “I look like I would like it”. Ok right, they wanted to know what is up with me.
I was taken over to a woman’s home by my friend and out of no where she started to do candle magic. I did not feel uncomfortable, but I found it strange I keep running into these “people”.
I have been blatantly called out as a witch several times in my life. Now I have to tell you that I was going to church regularly and had nothing on my person to deem me a witch.
Finally I gave up and step up to who I am. I read the seven-day candles. There is always a message left in the glass. I seen faces, animals, and places. I have requested something and used a sigil on the glass. The exact image was left on the glass with a line through it.
I will tell you more as we get to know each other. I welcome all comments. But if you feel the need to spew hate or anything negative towards me, I will not accept it. Do not be surprise if your day may end up as you wish it for myself. No I will not cast a spell. It seems to happen with out me giving it a thought.