Blessings to you my light/shadow spirits. I had to meditate a bit on this read. why because this is an issue that happened in the past that is reoccurring. You were younger and you were with people who said they had your back but in actuality they took more than they gave.
You started to absorb their negative way and it became a habit until you were called out on it. Presently you are on a new path that took you a bit to get on yet recently something popped up reminding you of the past. Normally when we see the reoccurrence of a negative it is a test to see if you learned from it or are you doomed to repeat it until you learn. My left ear feels as if it was getting pulled on like a child being told to listen.
Look ,Feel and Try to recall what it might be that is pulling you backward and delaying your progress.
If this resonates with you please let me know.