Blessing to you my light and shadow spirits. You have been feeling like you have not been following on the right path. But cheer up, you are following your own beat. Listen to it and you will see the doors opening for you. The strategy that you laid out in the past is not going to fuction for you in the present . What you want to come into fruition will mot manifest using that old strategy. So breath and keep walking towards your goal.
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